Fear

I am in a transition period of my life now where a new phase is about to begin. I will be starting to work soon. There is so much fear of the many possibilities in the future, the unforeseen possibilities to be exact.

How will work turn out to be?
How will my colleagues be like?
How would my life change?
How long does it take before I reach where I wanna be in my career path?
How would I save money?
How would I arrange my time?

Questions over questions running wild in my head. On top of this, there are other personal matters that bother my mind a lot too. So, if you were to ask me how am I now, I would tell you I am okay (but definitely I could have been better). I guess this is one phase that everyone goes through. Part and parcel of life they say. But as much as I am aware of what is going on, the mind and heart just won't cooperate. Ironic.
 

Rain

It has been quite some time since I last updated eh? I am very much alive here :) Been busy with family back home here and I am just feeling lazy every day.

It's 10am right now and I woke up to the rain outside pouring. It has been going on for hours and hours since last night. I curled up under my blanket and tried to force myself to go back to sleep. Afterall, it is the perfect weather to snuggle under the thick comforter. Somehow, the rain dampens my heart today. Since yesterday to be exact. I turned melancholy.

Many things have been bothering my mind lately. I have not been the person I used to be. I look forward to the days where I can tell myself there will be rainbows after rain. The sun will come out tomorrow. It is so funny that the mind knows what you should do yet the heart refuse to listen. Often they say listen to your heart. It is always easy to say one thing yet to do another.

Trust. Faith. Believe. Those are the things I need the most right now. I need them badly. Is there any potion for these available for sale anywhere? :)

At the mean time, I will be just right here. I will wait for the sun to come out. I will wait for a brighter day. I will wait for the prayers to be answered. Keeping hope in my heart, I will be right here waiting.