Perfection

I am one girl who likes perfection. However, I do not claim myself as a perfect girl.

Everyone has flaws. Not one person is perfect no matter in this world except for the ONE majestic one. As for the rest of us, we are just trying to be the best we can. I am part of this race of human being that tries to improvise myself in every way that I could. In this effort to trying to make a better self, I somehow developed a habit called perfection. I want most of the things around me to be perfect whether they are one petty stuff or any major things ranging from how I lead my life to my work and the list goes on.

I remember those days when I was still in primary school where we had a lot of projects/assignments which includes folio and scrapbook, I would reprint the whole page of work if I spotted ONE itsy bitsy teenie weenie error. Spelling error? Spacing error? Or ink smudged? You name it. Due to this reason, some of those completed projects might be pretty costly at the end of the day. They have to be up to my own standard before they are passed up. At the end of the day, I am happy with the outcome. Though I know it may not be exactly all perfect, I know I have given my best and looking the outcome of those effort simply makes me proud of myself. That self satisfaction is what I am looking for. Till this day, I still do the same thing in my assignments in uni.

Another way to spot this habit in me would be the days where I try to dress up before going out. When I try to pull off some hairstyles that are out of the ordinary ones that I would like to try out, I would just end up with a simple ponytail at the end of the day if I am not satisfied with the outcome of whatever I am doing with my hair. Or nails painting for example. The reason why I am so lazy to paint my nails nowadays is because of single smudge or imperfection of the wet painted nails, I would practically rub everything off. At the end of the day, I would have unpainted nails. 

True enough, this habit of  mine could be very frustrating at times when I do not get the result that I want. Not to mention costly whether you are talking bout time, money or effort. In the process, I might have even stepped on some others' tail and I am truly sorry if you are one of them. However, this strongly characterize who I am and I am happy of the way I am now. Therefore, I shall continue to seek for perfection in everything I can as long as I am not breaking the law. Anyway, being perfectionist is not a crime, no? :)

New Room for New Year

It's the 12th day of year 2011 and I am just 2 weeks away from home. Wait for me lovelies, I will be home for Chinese New Year!! Get your red packets ready and fill em' up with lotsa moolahh! :D

Well, I have been staying in Kolej Keris Mas for one semester now since I started my master degree. I was staying in Kolej Pendeta Zaba during my bachelor degree years and I thought it was good enough. But to compare to where I am staying now, Kolej Keris Mas rocks to the core! Lol. I was staying in a single room last semester (hooray for all the privacy that I get!) and was told to move to another block just last weekend. We were told to evacuate the building within three days prior to a REALLY short notice. 

I was comparing the old room previously with my new room now (both in Keris Mas) and I have to say I was not happy initially. Room got smaller. Furniture got smaller though they are all brand new. Pink room with orange furniture. How does that sound to you? Kinky much? Haha! But I think I am getting used to this (minus the new mattress that is super hard). 

#1 Half of my stuff in my room. Packed to be moved :)

 #2 My new closet that is much smaller than the one in the old room. Reminds me of my days in matriculation though since it was a similar closet.

#3 The new bed with the mattress yang super keras that I have to get used to. As much as people tell me that this kind of bed is good for my back, I want my pocket spring bed at home! :(

#4 Did I mention there are extra drawer under the bed for me to hide more stuff? *grins*

#5 The shelf that makes the room look way more tidy! Loving it!! :D

#6 The new working place which I am not very fond of due absence of drawers. 

#7 The view out my window. Yup, kedai makan di bawah saja. Can hear them frying stuff late at night. Kah-chang ka-chang! -.-"

Overall, this room is not too bad as how I view it when I first stepped in here after lotsa of cleaning and filling up the room with stuff. At least I could say, this room is comfier than my room in Kolej Pendeta Zaba. Oh, did I mention that I am way nearer to the super delicious burger stall now? Hooraayyy for having burger for dinner and supper every night! Ha!!

Oh yes! I have my classes on Monday and Friday only. So, for the rest of the days during the week, I might just be a bummer and stay in the room. Ahhhh...... :D

On the side note, some areas in Brisbane is having a horrible flood at the moment and it seems to be getting worse. I pray that family members over there are stay safe and sound there. Sigh. What is happening to the world? Double sigh.

That is all the update for today. Stay tune! Sorry if I bore you out! :) Take care.

Coffee High

After hours and hours of doing this..... *pointing to the picture below*

P/s: This is just few one the whole stack of exercises done -.-

 I became like this! *cuba buat buat muka frust tapi tidak menjadi*

Then I had to take many sachets of this... (to keep myself from salivating on my book)

Then I became like this...

 

Muka high on caffeine that I was super hyperactive that I start kacau-ing everyone. The hyperactive effect worn off hours later and I am feeling nauseous now.

That's it. Enough coffee for this semester.

As of now, I am left with one paper and I will be flying back home. But but.... mostly friends either finished or finishing their exam tomorrow. Very the no mood to study la! *SIGH* It sucks to be starting your exams way ahead of others and finish later than them.

22 on the 22nd

And so, I am no longer 21.

Another year older, another year wiser. Reflecting back a year ago, many things happened throughout. Good things come out of the bad things that happened. Everything happened for a reason or more than just a reason. Of course, it was not entirely bad throughout the year ;) Being where I am right now, I would really have to thank God for the abundant blessings He showered. Things have been pretty rough before and I was at the downside for some time. Without the love and support of family and friends, I wouldn't be able to recover and feel the genuine happiness I had yesterday during my birthday.

I spent stuck in the room eating up my lecture notes studying for my upcoming exam next week. It was my decision to stay back despite the invitation for celebration with a very very dear friend. Seriously, it was not bad at all. It was really the thought that counts :) With this, I sincerely thank you all for all the wishes  from each one of you when the clock struck 12 midnight may it be a simple phone call or sms or merely those wishes on my facebook wall. Coursemates bought me gift and we went for a simple dinner on the eve of my birthday. I had one birthday wish from a friend that I have lost contact for some time and receiving that one wish somehow made me feel love. Another friend sent a simple text telling me that a facebook reminder is not needed to know that it's my birthday made me melt. Those thoughtfulness made my day better than I expected it to be.

Nuff said for now. Will get back to me books :) Will update later on the celebration to come after my two major exam papers next week :) Again, thank you again for reminding me that I am not just one insignificant creature living on planet earth ;) Till then, take care there and BIG HUGS AND KISSES from the yours truly ♥♥♥

Tik Tok

Time passes so fast that I almost didn't realize it is the end of September already. September has been treating me good but I shall update again soon enough when I have the time (soon I hope!). I know, cobwebs are growing all over this blog already :P Thousand apologies!

Time oh time, couldn't you slow down a little? So many things to be done yet so little time.

Officially A Graduate

I am proud to announce that 

I am officially a graduate 

of 

B.Sc. (Hons) in Mathematics

Photos taken are available in facebook. Will update here as soon as I have more time. Assignments and quizzes and mid semester exams are occupying my time at the moment. For those who are still in blur what am I talking here, I am currently doing my master degree in Mathematics. So yes... another round of life of a student, AGAIN :) 

Stay tuned! 

XOXO

Yours Truly

My Purple Robe

Sneak peak! :) 

Looking forward to this weekend with family and the big Tuesday of course. 

Happy weekend to all and congratulations to friends who are graduating! There were up and downs throughout those years but we all made it through. Cheers to the ending of one ending and beginning of another one. 

Ranting

It is the first day of July now and how I wish I could stop time, or at least slow it down a little. Frankly speaking, this holiday (as I am concerned) seems to be rather short. Shorter than those previous ones I guess. Time passes fast when you are happy. Vice versa. I had awesome loads of fun this break and I just can't seem to get enough of it :) :) One thing that I learned, family and friends are the best things you can have in your life. Nothing fancy, just having them around can make your life colourful doesn't matter where you are may it be deep in the jungle, or a serene beach, or just plainly at home. 

Now, the "short" break is coming to an end and it is time to face the reality again. I got accepted to do my master in the same uni, UKM. Yup, as reluctant as I am to get my arse back in there, I am still going back there. I will be a student again for another year and hopefully end up with a awesome job. At the mean time, I am at the state of mind where I somehow fear of whatever that is coming ahead. Some fear that I had before I enter uni when I was 18 years old. Right now, I have no idea if everything will just be the same like the days I did my degree. Will the days ahead be challenging? Or they will be filled with more and more and more fun  (and study stress that always comes along with it of course :P)? I don't know. One thing I know, I look forward to those days! Lets just pray for the best! :) :) 

I will have to deal with the registration again, just like last time. Short period notice yet so many things to be done! Headache headache headache!~~ Ggggrrrr~~ Anyway, will update bout my tourguiding experience when I am free ;) Come back and check out the awesome stuff bout KK. Till then, take care! :)

Getaway

I just finished my last examination paper for my degree years and I am having my final year project presentation coming right up two days from now.

Will be only leaving West Malaysia only on the 14th May and I am thinking what should I do for such a long period? I need a getaway, a break from everything. Was thinking of Penang? Or Singapore again? Or if I naik gila... I might just end up in Australia? Lol. Kalau la duit itu banyak, tidak payah fikir banyak kan? Heeeee...

Drama

It is a sunny Saturday out there today. I am stuck in my room trying to study for my upcoming midterm paper this upcoming Monday. My last midterm paper, sob sob >.<"

Anyway, my life has been pretty dramatic lately. Indeed it is interesting to watch tv drama or other's drama but it is not fun at all being inside the drama. Things were just so complicated everywhere and everything just happened at the same time, not to mention the wrong time.

During this period, people hurt each other and got hurt somewhere along the line, whether they were intentionally or unintentionally. On my behalf, I seek for forgiveness from those who were involved for those pain caused. I know, we are all trying to be the best that we can but things just ain't easy as it seems. Things just get out of control sometimes. However, please do know that I have never pointed my fingers to anyone all this time because I know neither of us wanted things to turn out this way. No one is to be blamed in anything because it takes both hands to clap.

For now, I would like to put everything aside as I need to get back on track. I have been slacking off for too long. Everything was pending because I was so caught up in the drama. Give me a break please. I need to breathe. Many thanks to those who were there with me when all of these were just so hard to take in. Just when I thought I was alone, I was proven wrong. The little things in life sometimes do make major differences in life. Hugs.

With the hope tomorrow will be a better day, I just can't wait for everything to be over. I know, for better or worse, this whole drama will eventually be something I would laugh over one day later.

Love,
B

Dilemma of a Shopaholic

If you know me well enough, you would have known that I am a shopaholic. Shopping makes me happy. Shopping makes me happier IF ONLY I have all the money I need to buy all the things that I want. However, I always have trouble making up my mind over all the choices available. Dilemma. Always in dilemma.

Best example - clothes. I feel like grabbing all the colours that I like without having to CHOOSE ONLY ONE. OMG! Headache la like that....

Like recently, I was contemplating between the colours of the dress I was interested in one of the blogshop (Simpli-cious). FYI, I have addiction to online shopping as much as shopping offline (meaning in the malls la). Now, it is even harder to make decision buying things online since the real items are not there for you to see and I can't try them on. I can only rely on the pictures and imagine myself in it. Risky, I know. Siapalah suruh suka sangat shopping? So, I started to ask friends around and everyone gave me their opinions. Blue or grey? Grey or blue? Blue? Grey? Argghh.....

I ended up buying the blue one. Some think that I should have taken grey instead of blue. Too late! The dress is on the way already.

Today, I browsed around blogshops again and I instantly fell in love with another dress in Ladies Fashion. Here I go again. Contemplating is my number one game. Indecisiveness is contemplation's best friend. They always come in together. Red or turqoise? Turqoise or red?


I was so frustrated with my indecisiveness. I came up with an idea. I ended up doing something out of the ordinary instead of studying for my upcoming exam. This is the time to try out my photoshop skill. *Nod nod* I photoshop-ed myself into that dress - both colours. I did this very selamba only la - as long as I can see myself in those dresses enough la. By the way, the photo is taken during Steph's 21st Birthday Celebration which was September 2008.


Now, did that make my decision making easier? NOPE. I liked both =.=|| *sigh* However, it did help others to decide for me. I was told to get red one instead of turqoise. Majority voted for red anyway. Like it or not, I have to pick one. *sigh again*

So, which one would do you pick? What say you?

Dilemma oh dilemma.

Makeover

Do you recognize this blondie?

In case you have not notice, this "orang putih sesat" is me!! =P
I have to admit I look weird in blonde hair. Cannot la this I bleach my hair this. Obviously, I have the typical Asian look, typical chinese look to be more specific. Indeed not many Asians can pull off blonde hair. So don't simply go 'blondified' your hair and attract unwanted attention ok.

Since I know I will definately look weird if I ever clorox-kan my black hair, I have to clorox-kan my black hair virtually. Look! I even changed my hairstyle!! Weeeee....

OK. Enough with the crap. My real intention is to see if I look bad in short hair since I have always wanted to cut them short since years ago. The thought of cutting hair recently surfaced back but as usual, I contemplate again. Truthfully, I don't have the guts to take the risk knowing that I will have to bear with the 'ugliness' if the haircut turns out to be sucky. So I decided to search for some nice hairstyle that I may be able to pull off. I came across a website which allows you to upload your photo and put on different hairstyle on yourself. I gave it a shot. Now, not only you are able to pick the hairstyle, you can even change the colour and length and shape of the selected hairstyle as you wish.
*CLICK HERE*

Here I go putting on my virtual wig with different shades of colour. I was a blonde, then I transformed into a brunette, then I had my black hair again... with the same hairstyle.
You judge.
Which colour suits me the best? I will go dye my hair instantly =P Jk~~


These are some wigs that interested me. Some looked so funny that I was laughing to myself in my empty room. Check out the first one where I had Beyonce's hair.
Can you guess whose those other two belong to?
Enough with the different shades. Lets stick to something similar to my current hair colour ok.
NEXT.
There is nothing extraordinary bout this once since I had similar cut before. I received good and bad comments then. Again, you be the judge.
So should I straighten my hair again?

If not, lets look at some other hairstyle.
Remember the time when Rihanna's haircut was so popular that you see everyone on the street have the same hairstyle? I thought of cutting my hair like that before but I figured it wouldn't complement my face shape that much. I decided to 'cut' my hair to that once-famous-hairstyle just now and this is how it turned out.
Lets get more serious now.
I wanted to have shoulder length hair. If I do cut my hair later, I will end up looking like these. Good or no good?
*Gambar ke-2 nampak tua betul ehhhhhhh*
After playing around with the 'safe' hairstyle, I tried something more extreme. Something I would never consider having cuz I believe I can never pull them off. Sure nampak lebih gemuk punya. Somehow...when I put those hairstyle up already (especially the fourth one), I remembered back how I looked like when I was a little girl from the photo albums at home. When I was around 3 years old, I had this short boy-look-hairstyle. The second hairstyle reminds me on Dawn from Malaysian Dream Girl series. Masa itu, sudahlah rambutnya itu pendek, dipendekkan lagi rambutnya itu.
So, are these hairstyles considerable?

I tried all the options available there.
Bangs, short, straight, curly, wavy, party, wedding.
How can I miss out the men's hairstyle, right?
There was not many option of men's haircut available there but I was attracted to these two hairstyle.
You jugde.
Who looks better in those haircuts?

Brenda vs Zac Efron
@
Brenda vs Barack Obama

Conclusion made.
I need bangs and fringe in whatever hairstyle I will have in the future.

Have fun trying!!
xoxo

100 Truths

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage= air bandung

2. Last phone call = makcik bridget

3. Last text message = makcik bridget

4. Last song you listened to = sunshine by gabrielle

5. Last time you cried = a week ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice = for me to know, for you to find out

7. Been cheated on = dont think so

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = for me to know, for you to find out

9. Lost someone special = yes

10. Been depressed = duh~

11. Been drunk and threw up = yes - one and only time in miri last semester break

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue (like it for no apparent reason...go see my room if you dont bilif me)

13. purple (combination of girlish and boyish)

14. black (always the color to slim you down when it comes to clothes)

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend = yes, more than one

16. Fallen out of love = partially, i wouldnt say it was entirely out of love *is there such thing=P*

17. Laughed until you cried = yes, still loving my crazy bunch of friends

18. Met someone who changed you = yes, in some ways unexpectedl

19. Found out who your true friends were = yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you = guess not, 2009 is still treating me welll hehe~

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = for me to know, for you to find out *wink*

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = most of them, lazy to give statistical data =D

24. Do you have any pets = go previous post hehe~ *click here*

25. Do you want to change your name = no, despite having 3 brenda-s in the class before

26. What did you do for your last birthday = drinking burning alcohol XD

27. What time did you wake up today = 9am, alarm started ringing around 830am though

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = studying for upcoming midterm paper

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = understanding strategy and control notes for quiz tomorrow

30. Last time you saw your Mother = two months ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = nothing, loving the way it is

32. What are you listening to right now = the fan of my laptop and the raindrops outside my room

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = thomas was his name, thoms is the name ppl use to call him

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = understanding strategy and control notes @@

35. Most visited webpage = facebook and online blogshops

36. Where you want to be right now = my bed back home

37. Nicknames = go check my first post *click here*

38. Relationship Status = single

39. Zodiac sign = libra

40. Male or female = female

41. Elementary? = st francis convent

42. Middle school = st francis convent

43. Hair colour = dark brown, colored my hair last sem break

44. Long or short = long

46. Height = 5 feet 2 inches

47. Do you have a crush on someone = for me to know, for you to find out

48. What do you like about yourself = you come and ask me la, i dowan to perasan =P

49. Piercings = ears, 3 at my left and 2 at my right *tanpa kebenaran bah dis some of them*

50. Tattoos = nope

51. Righty or lefty = righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = 7 years old in sabah medical centre by dr. param for the wound caused by a parang

53. First piercing = dont remember, only remember the penembak,"sak tam you"(minyak batu) and the gula-gula given to pujuk me

54. First best friend = ellynda i would say, was a loner hohoho~~

55. First kiss = for me to know for you to find out

56. First vacation = jerudong park in brunei

57. First crush = for me to know, for you to find out

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RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = nope but i just finished 10 candies tonight alone. lai lai lai diabetes~

60.Drinking = skyjuice XD

61. I'm about to = continue my study, STRATEGY AND CONTROL is killing muah~

62. Listening to = raindrops outside my room (i thought i answered this)

63. Waiting for = the moment i understand my confusing and complicated lecture notes

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = yes

65. Get married = yes

66. Career = earn big money of coz to bring mummy and daddy travelling

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = eyes

68. Hugs or kisses = kisses

69. Shorter or taller = taller

70. Older or Younger = older

71. Romantic or spontaneous = both at the right situation

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = both (nice stomach to sleep on...dowan buncit one though, nice arms to hug me)

73. Sensitive or loud = both at the right time and right place

74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = both would make the relationship a little bit more interesting

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = for me to know, for you to find out

77. Drank hard liquor = retorical ques dont you think?

78. Lost glasses/contacts = yes, i thought i dropped my contacts the 1st time wearing it...padahal it was just out of position @@ only after i threw one side punya contacts then i know the other one was still inside my eyes lol~

79. Sex on first date = nope

80. Broken someone's heart = yes and i am so sorry X(

81. Had your own heart broken = yeap yeap

82. Been arrested = for what? telling lies? hohoho~~

83. Turned someone down = for me to know, for you to find out

84. Cried when someone died = many times, ask my family members~~

85. Fallen for a friend? = for me to know, for you to find out

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = for me to know, for you to find out

87. Miracles = yes, witness with my own eyes... shared some during last CSSUKM annual camp

88. Love at first sight = for me to know, for you to find out

89. Heaven = for me to know, for you to find out

90. Santa Claus = i am the santa claus now every xmas, dad bagi duit, i tukang shop for presents

91. Kiss on the first date = for me to know, for you to find out

92. Angels = yeap yup

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

93. Had more than one bf/gf?= yup including puppy loves *woof woof*

95.Did you sing today? = after listening to the song 'sunshine' and some other song i forgot hehe~

96. Ever cheated on somebody? = for me to know, for you to find out

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = complicated... SKIP~

98. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = for me to know, for you to find out

100. Posting this as 100 truths? = for me to know, for you to find out

Tagged by May, Joycie and Connie...

Tag: Bridget, Gnet, Eileen, Hailey, Connie, Joyce, Leon, Yun, DD, Daph, Kimmie, Sonia, Van, Mccrea, John, Tata .... cant think liao @@ For non-bloggers, Allison, Chau Sen, Siew Lian, Steph S, Anna, Samson and my own brother Alex... enough la~~~

Suppose to be studying for my quiz tomorrow and midterm paper on Friday which explains the Strategy and Control appearing so many times in the answers. LOL~ I guess there are less than 100 truths here since there is a lot of "for me to know, for you to find out" answer.

So if you are interested, come and ask me la...lai lai lai~~~ =D

Perfection Is Not Always Fun

I have been doing this particular assignment for the subject Strategy & Control since last week. In this subject, we are suppose to determine the available moves in a game like Poker or Paper, Stone and Scissors. The reward of each move is calculated to determine the best strategy for every players in the game. Long story short, there is a lot of numbers, charts and calculation were used in compeleting this assignment.

However, when everything was drafted into the paper already, it is time to type them all out. As this is a group work which involves a lot of typing of numbers and fractions, we divided the task among the four of us. Guess what? A few of us came up with different way of expressing the same sentence with different way of typing. Have a look at the photo below. Click on it to enlarge.


Being the perfectionist me (most of the time especially in presentation wise), I standardized EVERYTHING where I had to change one by one. It was troublesome bcuz I had to change the normal text into equation in Microsoft word. In short, I had to go a lot of clicking and waiting (it takes some time to load the equation function).


Have a look at the chart below. I had to do this with photoshop cause Microsoft Word didn't allow me to do this since it was slightly different from the ordinary one.


Conclusion made. I learned more photoshop and ms word skills more than my mathematical skills in completing this assignment. Irony.

So, being a perfectionist is not fun sometimes since every little details matters. Of course you get the satisfaction of the result at the end of your work. However, the process of making everything perfect is such a killer.

I do wish I can tutup sebelah mata and ignore those little details sometimes.
Brenda oh Brenda, sendiri cari masalah...

I Am A Type Of Blood

The blood that is running through my body is A type =P

I went for blood donation last Tuesday (4th August 2009). I was feeling generous with my blood. Hehe~~

My red warm blood going around my hand.

This is my second time donating anyway. My first time donating was more than a year ago which was early last year. I fainted that time. Thinking back, it was rather funny cause I pretty much created a scene there >.< *shy* with people layan-ing me like I was the princess. LOL!

This time I learned my lesson so that I shall not humiliate myself again. I decided that I shall take more rest after the donation.

And I did.

But the same thing happened to me minus the fainting part. I was so weak and dizzy after I started taking a few steps after the donation. I could barely take any step further. I practically crawled walked to the nearest bench near me WHICH WAS UNDER THE HOT SUN where everyone that passed by gave the what-a-weird-girl-sleeping-under-the-hot-glaring-sun look. I can't be bothered at that moment. I was having cold sweat, spinning head along with SUPER WEAK body.

Luckily one of the person in charge there spotted me and I was brought to rest. I was told that I look pale. I didn't realise I fell asleep for 30 minutes while resting. When I gained my conciousness back, it was 4.30 pm and I have class at 5 pm. I figured it is time to walk to class.

I was feeling better as I was walking to the lecture hall before I started feeling weak again. I had to stop again. My friend, Gloria, that was passing by saw me resting on the bench again, with a pale look. Immediately, she called Connie. She told me to go back to my room but I insist on going for class though. I reached lecture hall sharp at 5 pm. A journey that usually takes 5 minutes turned to a journey of 30 minutes that day. At that moment, I thought to myself...

Should I continue to donate blood next time?
Does this mean that I am not meant to donate blood?

I would really want to donate but I really hate the weak feeling. It sucks. It really does. I realise this time was worse than the first time.

Effect of the blood donation?


Picture of the bruise above was taken three days after I donated my blood. Is it the nurse fault? Or is it my fault? If it is the nurse who didn't know how to poke that huge needle into the correct place, I can tell you this nurse is WAY BETTER than the nurse that attended me during my first time donating as my bruise then was A LOT BIGGER and WORSE than this.

Still thinking if I should donate again next time especially after someone telling me that donating blood makes donor fatter since blood donation increases food apetite with the new cell growth. After all, the weakness feeling is only temporary compared to the pain bear by those who needs MY blood =D

Spectacles

This is my spectacles. I am short sighted.

Notice something about my spec? If you don't, let me show you.
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See the area circled in red?
Yes. It is broken. Though it is only a small part of my spec, it bothers me a lot. I have to use contact lense to class everyday which is a hassle for me. Menyusahkan.
Before I notice it was broken, I actually thought it was drips of water on the glasses since I just washed my face then. I rubbed/cleaned my spec two times with the intention of drying out the water and yet the 'stain' was still there. Rupa-rupanya pecah pula cermin mata. I seriously don't recall accidently nor purposely 'torturing' my spec.

When did this happen, I do not know. How did this happen, I do not know.
One thing that I know is I am not having a very good week. One incident after another.
After spending so much on a new set of phone, I don't know if I should get a new pair of spectacles. Maybe I should just replace the lense.

Mr Bad Luck, give me a break!
No more unexpected and unnecessary spending please.

Money money, lai lai lai~
Bad luck bad luck, shoo shoo~

Welcome Back MSG

Monosodium glutamate, also known as sodium glutamate and MSG, is a sodium salt of the non-essential amino acid glutamic acid. It is used as a food additive and is commonly marketed as a flavour enhancer. It has the HS code 29224220 and the E number E621. Trade names of monosodium glutamate include Ajinomoto, Vetsin, and Accent. It was once predominantly made from wheat gluten, but is now mostly made from bacterial fermentation; it is acceptable for celiacs following a gluten-free diet.

Source: Wikipedia

So why am I talking bout MSG suddenly?
Well...

This is my first packet of instant noodles since uni life started this semester. I have been eating healthy food minus McD, Pizza and some other fast food once in a while =D for nearly a month now. Groceries including that I bought during the first week of the semester were not touched at all untill today which means I have been eating out all of the time, until today that is~~

I was a instant noodle junkie. MSG is addictive ya know.

It started during my matriculation days where instant noodles taste a lot better than the same old food that you get in Siswi Cafe or IJ Cafe in Labuan Matriculation College. Sometimes, I rather not eat anything at all. I still lotsa stock of instant noodles in my closet last time. Ask my ex-roommate if you happen to know them - Fara, A'a, Moreen. It was during this one whole year of hostel life that I started experimenting with different brand of instant noodles. Before this, the only brand of instant noodle that I know was Maggi like the other Malaysians who refers instant noodles as Maggi and chocolate drink as Milo and the list goes on. Nonetheless, I still have homecook meal every weekend...thanks to my Aunty Jane who stays in Labuan for the wonderful yummy vogok dishes.

I remember the days of my first year in UKM where instant noodles and I were best friends. Cafeteria here was the place I would visit regularly. Until today, I have not tried all the food they have there. It was also during the first year where I share my favourite 'snack' with my ex-roommate, Beckham. Mind you, I didn't stay with a guy ok. Beckham is the nickname everyone calls her. Anyway, I literally eat instant noodles every day, may it be a meal for break, lunch, dinner, supper or just snacks. However, there was an exception - I drink the soup and Beckham would eat the noodles. So, we share a packet or two of instant noodles together. Macam manalah boleh kenyang kalau macam itu. Silly~~hehehe. Those were the days. I have different roommate now with "many thanks" to the hostel adminstration here. I miss having her as my roommate. Unlike now.

By the way, I am adding more MSG into my body tonight. Me and the rest of the 9 santutz are planning to have pizza from Domino's cause Steph has discount coupons of validity till this Friday 31 July 09.

Welcome food.
Welcome cheese.
Welcome meat.
Welcome little-bit-of-vege.
Welcome mushroom.
Welcome fast food.
Welcome MSG.
Welcome fats.
Bye bye health.

Newbie Baby

Proudly presenting my new baby =D

I went to Midvalley yesterday and came back home with a big hole in the pocket phone. Being the indecisive me, I couldn't make up my mind after reading the reviews of so many type of different phone online. I have always wanted to change N70 to something more canggih but I didn't expect it to be any time soon. I was thinking of replacing/changing it, which means keeping the old one by not letting it fall into any shytez lubang tandas. Dilemma. I can't afford to get the one I really wanted since I am still a student and I don't get any sponsor from anyone for any phone I am buying. So, my purse was thick for 5 minutes before all the RM50 notes flew off within minutes later.

Nokia 5800 Express Music

Hope I don't regret getting this one and let's pray it doesn't fall into anywhere ok? Not to the floor, not to any sink, not to any shytez toilet bowl anymore.

*finger crossed*

Deep S-H-Y-T-E

This is definitely not my day.

Having to get up in the morning to stand by the booth at Pusanika, I woke up in the morning with the intention of catching the 10am bus. After getting ready and all, I rushed down to the bus stop nearer to my block. As I was near the bus stop, the bus left right in front of my eyes. "It's OK. I'll just catch the next bus 10.30am bus then."

So, I was just sitting around the bus stop looking for car rental number Gnet wanted for this Sunday's outing. After looking up and down for 15 minutes, I decided that I should move to the main bus stop (up the hill) since I have lotsa time. On my way up, I stopped by the atm machine to withdraw some money. To my surprise, my atm card was missing. As far as I recalled, it was in the card holder along with my IC and student ID. @_@ I am in deep shyte. Went back to my room and checked all the possible places and end up with disappointing result. Again, I rushed down to the bus stop again for the second time to catch the bus with the hope I will find it in either one of the two booths.

Sadly, I still can't find my cards after searching both booth. I decided to go back to my room again to search for the missing cards, for the second time. Well, sometimes things appear in the same place that I searchED when I do it the second or third time or so forth. In my room, I was looking everywhere now. Found them in the end. Hidden in my roommate's pile of things that was messed up when the mattress in my room was changed, without anyone present in the room =.= Ok, enough bout that.

Was not feeling well for the rest of the day. Went for class as usual.

Just before dinner, I went to the toilet and accidently locked myself out of my room. Went to friend's room to get my key and she was not in. So, I went for dinner first with Conee and Gnet. After dinner, I spent some time in Conee's room before returning to my room. And before I went to my friend's room to get my room key, I went to the toilet first WITH MY PHONE IN MY POCKET.

Guess what? It SLIPPED OUT of my pocket and went ALL THE WAY DOWN the shytez and urine pipe. There goes my phone now. Once again, I am in deep shyte.

Like I said, this is SO-NOT-MY-DAY =(

Sunshine

Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfil my fantasies

I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came I saw

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me

Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star

(Sunshine) Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine
My star, my star..

Despite all the hard things in life, there are still people out there that never fails to make me smile. Sunshine that makes my day, gloomy days were brighten up.

*smiling*