Fear

I am in a transition period of my life now where a new phase is about to begin. I will be starting to work soon. There is so much fear of the many possibilities in the future, the unforeseen possibilities to be exact.

How will work turn out to be?
How will my colleagues be like?
How would my life change?
How long does it take before I reach where I wanna be in my career path?
How would I save money?
How would I arrange my time?

Questions over questions running wild in my head. On top of this, there are other personal matters that bother my mind a lot too. So, if you were to ask me how am I now, I would tell you I am okay (but definitely I could have been better). I guess this is one phase that everyone goes through. Part and parcel of life they say. But as much as I am aware of what is going on, the mind and heart just won't cooperate. Ironic.
 

Rain

It has been quite some time since I last updated eh? I am very much alive here :) Been busy with family back home here and I am just feeling lazy every day.

It's 10am right now and I woke up to the rain outside pouring. It has been going on for hours and hours since last night. I curled up under my blanket and tried to force myself to go back to sleep. Afterall, it is the perfect weather to snuggle under the thick comforter. Somehow, the rain dampens my heart today. Since yesterday to be exact. I turned melancholy.

Many things have been bothering my mind lately. I have not been the person I used to be. I look forward to the days where I can tell myself there will be rainbows after rain. The sun will come out tomorrow. It is so funny that the mind knows what you should do yet the heart refuse to listen. Often they say listen to your heart. It is always easy to say one thing yet to do another.

Trust. Faith. Believe. Those are the things I need the most right now. I need them badly. Is there any potion for these available for sale anywhere? :)

At the mean time, I will be just right here. I will wait for the sun to come out. I will wait for a brighter day. I will wait for the prayers to be answered. Keeping hope in my heart, I will be right here waiting.

  

Life So Far

And so, I have been getting comment from a friend that says that my blog has turned to be mundane and boring. Haha! I guess I blame my laziness to edit photos taken :P and the pretty busy schedule previously where there were exams then come presentation and the final touch up of the thesis. Sounds petty, but when you get your hands on them, you would be running up and down that you won't even have time for meals :(

Thank God everything is over right now. I am currently in Singapore in the midst of the chaos and noises of family love. Aunties, uncles and cousins came from Australia and parents will be here this evening to see bro here. Have I mentioned that I would never replace this set for family for any others? :)

Anyhow, here is a lil update with life so far.

#1 The CSSUKM crowd that attended the Easter Sunday mass at Holy Family Kajang Church

#2 The kaki makan who filled up their stomach like pig during one steamboat session.

#3 Among the great variety of food to choose from is the awesome sotong! Grilled sotong with butter. Yummers~~!!!!!! 

 #4 CHILDHOOD SNACKS!!!! I haven't seen this for such a long time already!!!!!!!!!! Chocolate balls biscuits with the toys inside :P Spotted at Bandar Tasik Selatan train station.

#5 My love! Green tea frappucino from Starbucks! :) Another fav would be Java Chip Frappucino. These were grabbed during the Happy Hour Promotion from Starbucks where all the fraps were half priced. I wish I had more!! :( 

#6 The happy faces that finished their last paper in the master degree year :) and in the blissfulness of Starbucks drinks of course ;)

#7 The most innocent girl among the four girls who had were successfully persuaded by her friends to get a new pants and a new bag when it was her who didn't wanna go out initially. 

#8 The PARTIAL collection of shoes here in KL. I need pumps. I need more sandals.

#9 After thesis presentation and birthday celebration at Pizza Hut :)

#10 The yummy pizza!!!!

That's all for now. Would update pretty soon. See ya soon! :) XOXO from yours truly.

May May Be Good

Hello peeps.

How are you fella doing there? April left and here comes May. As for the the Sabahans, it would be whole month of celebration of the upcoming Harvest Festival at the end of the month. Oh yes, one whole month of drinking celebration. I am yet to be back in my chamber. Currently residing in a friend's home thanks to her and her family's kindness. Or else, I would have to merempat at some kaki lima along the dirty streets of Kajang or claim ownership of the tv room in my block. Thank you very much much for the kindness and may the good Lord shower bless you and your family abundantly. You know who you are :)

I have nothing new or interesting in my life minus the fact that I finished my last examination paper in my whole university years. Not feeling melancholy bout it, yet. I still have my research project presentation this coming Thursday and that would really be the time to put the curtain down on the stage. Before heading back home, I will be doing a pit stop at Singapore to join my parents who are visiting my little brother there. Meeting up the cousins and auntie and uncle from Aussie too! :) Blood is always thicker than water. I am grateful for my family, not only my nucleus family but the entire family. Ah, let me not get carried away.

And so, wish me luck for my presentation. If you have been following me, you should remember that I was assigned to a very strict lecturer as the examiner for my paper. I need all the luck I can get. Fold me cranes and fill my room with em'. Imaginary paper fold cranes also can. 

So here comes May. Please be kind. I am going back somewhere mid of this month and I am looking forward to be at home. Would love to stay at home longer than I usually do before I venture out to the working world again. So, I seek for a whole good month of May and the many coming months. Hold on, did I not ask for that every month? Haha!

Stay tuned. Lots of love from yours truly.
 
  

Examiner

I am feeling blardy discouraged. Just found out that the examiner for my research paper is one of the most strict lecturer is School of Mathematics in my faculty. Damn! Even that day during my proposal presentation, she was the guest lecturer and yet she kept bombarding me with question. Gone case la this time. Well, not that I am not confident with what I did for my project, but her questions were pretty irrelevant and somehow something tells me that she a quite a fussy lady. DOUBLE BIG SIGH.

Haiz, Forget bout it first lah. Lets focus on the upcoming paper first :(